It’s been almost a year since I started this blog. Well, its 4 months shy of its anniversary. I still remember June 15th, babu gave me the blog to write my first article. Oh boy Oh boy, how should I write it? What should I write in it? Will people like it or not? So many questions ran through my mind just for that one post. I wish I felt the same anxiety and excitement today. I used to open MS Word while writing my posts, but now I just write in the space given. It’s like I’ve lost my initial purpose of starting this thing.
My blog started out just being a simple little blog. A place where I could write down my thoughts without caring who reads it, what anyone thinks of it. Just my little place to take out the stress of life, my little sanctuary of thoughts. What’s happened to that simplistic little blog? Why has it become so commercialized? As I said, I just wanted to write, I wanted the world to read it, but not the whole world. The best thing about the internet is that people don’t judge you, and if they do, it doesn’t make a difference. I started publicizing my blog to friends and family, a move I think I shouldn’t have made. I don’t want people I actually know to read it, I don’t want to see their judgmental eyes. The primary reason was to get away from that, speak my mind, but in the end I was silenced.
When I started blogging,I didn’t care about anything. I mean today, there are so many other factors involved in this that I think it would be better that I didn’t know them. I recently was offered money for putting links up on my site. I accepted. Greed got the best of me. I’m always worrying about my rank, how many people come to my site, did they leave comments or not? Why does it have to be like this? Why can’t I just write, and not care about anything?
The answer is, that’s how life rolls. You start off as a kid, without worries. Life’s filled with happiness, you keep growing and the stress keep increasing. When I was a kid, I wished that I would grow up faster. GOD, I want to take that back. I want to be small again. I don’t want to grow up as fast as I am. I’d rather have my privileges cut instead of all this mess. I don’t want life to be so commercial. Why can’t I have a simple life?
I don’t know IF I can ever make my life simpler, or turn back time and be that little innocent kid again, but I’m sure that I can start from here. I apologize to anyone who takes anything offensively written on my blog. I don’t want to hurt you, and please don’t judge me. Maybe I’m weird, but I can at least speak my mind freely on MY OWN BLOG!
So if anything, you’ve been warned. All the posts from now on will not care about courtesy, or what people think of me. I’ll say them if I want to.
P.S. I have to give credit to Gurdit for bringing back the meaning of blogging to me. Love his site.
Listening to: Clocks by Coldplay
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