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Feel Miserable? Why?

Posted on March 21st, 2007 by The King.
Categories: Hilariously Dillusional, Life, School.

So today was like any other day in my life. Well I did get my report card, but I’ll come back to that. I got up in the morning, went to school, gave tests, the usual. But I feel miserable right now, and I’m not quite sure why? I mean I just do, no explanation or anything. Maybe too much stress, too much work, the SAT’s screwing with my head? Yup, I finally registered for the SAT’s. I did it on Monday, apparently it was the first day of Navratari and its supposed to be seen as good luck. So my dad wanted me to register on that particular day. Let’s just hope it proves to be lucky.

Back the the report card, I might just have figured out why I’m so miserable. My report was just a 100% average this time. I know everyone’s thinking, wow what a asshole. He gets a 100% and complaining, but you know what I’m thinking? I’m thinking the exact same thing. Why do I have to feel bad when I’m getting such good grades? Why do I feel like I could have done better? It’s a weird concept, but I have a theory. I’ve gotten so used to getting that 100+ average that now a 100 seems normal. And since none of my classes changed, I felt inside that I should have gotten another 103%.

It’s just weird how we set our own standards. A year ago, same time, I would have been on Cloud 9 if I had gotten these grades. I’d brag about, show it off to my parents. I would have probably called them as soon as I got home and I’d be just waiting for them to say Good Job. Ah! the proud feeling. Today, I came home. Relaxed, watched T.V. and pretty much forgot about my report card. It wasn’t till my Mom asked about my Report Card that I was reminded of it. I just said i got a 100% and got on with my business. Dad came home, handed it to him, he saw it, said Good Job, said thanks and pretty much end of conversation. Why can’t I get the same appreciation that I would have a year ago? Why do the standards keep changing? Why was my excellent score a year ago 99% but this year my average score is a 100? I’m not disappointed in my parents for responding the way they did, I’m just bewildered on my reaction. My reaction that meh, no big deal. I deserve a little more from my different personalities don’t you think?

Reason for this post? I don’t know. Just felt like writing!

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